Tonight I miss my daughter so much my heart hurts. It's funny how our mind sunconsciously knows when a particular season is nearing an end; maybe I just let my guard down these past few days since she will very soon be coming home!In 13 days to be exact.
Tessa left for YWAM (Youth with a Mission) training in Orlando, Florida last September, but with texting/e-mails and a quick trip down to her base to visit her, she didn't seem very far away. After a short visit to PA at Christmas, she left for India for the outreach portion of her missions experience. Even with the distance between us, I haven't dealt with a lot of homesickness. I tell myself that I have done this YWAM thing twice before with our older kids and I can do it again. Time just flies by and life at our house these past months has been rather predictable and mellow.
I like predictable and mellow.
But suddenly her room seems too clean, too quiet (did this "obsessive-about-clean-rooms" mom just write that??) and I miss the whirlwind of activity that breezes in whenever Tessa shows up!The front door is practically revolving, as her friends come and go.She is vivacious, bubbly and energetic,very driven and passionate about life. She laughs loudly, feels deeply and plays hard! Her emotions can be her biggest hurdle at times, but I love how she is learning, with a growing maturity, to temper her feelings- both the highs and the lows. I never want her to stop being Tessa, though!
The picture below is of Tessa when she was just two years old. Already she had a sparkle in her eyes and a dance in her step! I love this girl.
oh, i could almost cry just looking at that picture of Tess when she was little! How quickly the years go by and now I'm in the middle of them....I so enjoy reading your writings! You have a way of taking me right to where you are.
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and sister.
and friend!
Fan you describe Tessa much like my mother describes me. I loved this update. You will be reunited with Tessa so soon. She will forever feel safe in the love that you have for her.
ReplyDeleteHow did you do this? It seems like you only started blogging a short time ago and here you are looking like a pro blogger. I just spent some time here, reading down through each of your posts, identifying with you as a mother and of course now, as a grandma. Oh, she is so precious. I feel like it is a real privilege to step into your corner of the world every time I read a post. I read every day when you blogged about your husband, praying whenever I did. Now, I have this joy of sharing bits and pieces of your life. Thank you for blogging and thank you for being a real blessing to me on this Wednesday afternoon. Judy
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